Weekends….and Big Brother 10…

Weekends at my house tend to be very boring. I’ve spent that last couple of days watching the 24/7 feed of big brother 10. By time yesterday was over I knew more about it then what most people do that just watch the show on CBS 3 times a week. But it’s only because the show only has 1 live episode a week and it’s when the they evict someone on Thursdays…Plus the whole episode that day isn’t live just the eviction…So if you watch big brother after dark on showtime or the 24/7 feed you can find out who is up for eviction and who has won the power-of-veto a couple of days before you would on CBS..Anyways, last night when I started to write my paper for class is seems like ever person who has my phone number decided to call me. First Caity called and when I finally got her off the phone a good 20 or 30 minutes later, Jeremy decided to call and get his weekly update on how my life is going for me, then he said he was gonna let me go so he could talk to his girlfriend before they called curfew and then Christina calls and talks for 30 to 45 minutes about my brother calling her. And then just when I finally think I will get to finish my paper my old roommate Kayla calls and wants me to go hang out with her at the lake. I explained to her I had a paper due on Monday and that I also really wasn’t in the mood to hang out at the lake. One of the main reasons being that I got my wallet stolen yesterday, and I had a major melt down. It’s not that there was a lot of money in it or anything, it’s just now I have to get a new drivers liesense, ssn card, insurance card and voter registration card. Plus I have to explain to the school tommorrow that I can only show them a copy of my id to pick up my books because of it getting stolen and not being able to replace of said stuff until next week or later because it depends on how long it takes me to find my birth certificate or if I have to take a trip down to OKC to pick up another on. It’s more annoying then anything, because the truth is no one wants my credit anyways. I defalted on a credit card when I was 18 which makes me have uberly bad credit in most peoples eyes. Anyways, that’s the update for now.

Updates on Life…Plus a little info on Job Corps…

So, I started school on Thursday. It’s pretty much what I excpected except for I have to go buy books on Monday and one of the books we use all year cost around $90 and another one costs $87. It’s times like these that I’m very thankful that I have financal aid and don’t have to pay for books. I met some really nice people that are in class with me. I’m just glad college is nothing like job corps or high school. Which I guess would be one in the same because job corps is like high school, except for it’s 24 hours a day 7 days a week 365 days a year. It’s stressful, and they used to have something to help that called stress leave but when I was there they decided that people we abusing it saying they needed to leave because of stress just to find a way out of job corps. Now they only have the usual Medical Leave and something called Admistrative Leave, which you don’t want to be on. It’s the one where you don’t choose to go on leave. If you get into really bad trouble and they send you home while they decide what to do with you, it’s basically the high school eqivelant of suspension, and they also have emergancy leave, which you only get if you have a family emergancy or someone in your imediate family dies. Plus they have AWOL, Absent without leave, it basically means what it says you left without getting permisson from anyone. You can only get 3 Awols in a row before they terminate you or you can get something like 15 in a year in 1 or 2 day incramintes. I know the rules don’t make a whole lot of sense, and even if you send as much time there as I did, you’ll still never understand why they have some of them, you just follow them anyways. Anyways, that’s the update for now.

Mosaic…

 

Ok, so BeckieBaristia tagged her readers to make a mosaic so that she could get to know them better.

The questions:

1. What is your name?
2. What is your favourite food?
3. Which school did you attend?
4. What is your favourite colour?
5. Which celebrity do you consider to be your favourite?
6. Your favourite drink?
7. Your dream holiday?
8. What do you want to be when you grow up?
9. What’s your favourite dessert?
10. What do you value most in life?
11. One word to describe you?
12. Your blog’s name?

The answers

1. Sasha
2.  BBQ Chicken Wings
3. Guthrie Job Corps
4. Pink
5.  Drew Barrymore
6. Mountian Dew
7. Salt Lake City
8. Doctor
9. Strawberry Shortcake
10. Love
11. Unique
12. Sashas Weblog

The Rules:

Open the Mosaic Maker. Then choose 3 columns and 4 rows. Go to the Flickr search page and search your answers to the questions below. Choose a photo on the first page only, open it and copy the URL into the appropriate line of the Mosaic page. When done with all 12 lines, SAVE to your chosen directory (probably My Pictures) and upload it to your posting.

So, hope I did a good job. This is deffinatly a good way to get to know your readers and it was a good idea.

Unexpected phone call…

So, I start school in a couple of days and I’ve yet to find another job. On a brighter note, I got a suprising phone call a couple of days ago from Robin, one of my good friends from job corps. I hadn’t talked to her in a long time and I found out why. She left job corps a couple of months ago and until a couple days ago she had lost my phone number. But she said that she found it when she finally unpacked the rest of her stuff from when she left job corps. She only lives about 20 or 30 miles from me, which I knew but she said she’s tired of living with her mom but that she’s just like me and can’t really afford to move out. She asked me if I wanted to save money up and rent an apartment with her because it would be easier for both of us if we only had to spilt the bills. Plus she wants to go to the college her in Ponca but she can’t afford to drive back and forth everyday. I told that it sounded like a good idea, because ever since I had my miscarrige my mom treats me different. I’m not sure why she just does. It’s weird but everything has been changing more over the last couple of weeks then it did the entire year i was at job corps. Me and Caity were best friends when I left job corps back in March but every since I told her mom about what she had been planning she just kind of stopped acting like me and her are best friends. I knew when I told her mom that she was gonna be mad for a little bit but I thought she would get over it eventually. I guess she still might it just changed things I guess. Jeremy finally got a girlfriend and lost his major crush on Caity, not saying this change is bad, actually it’s a good thing because I’ve been working on getting him to lose it for months. Hardly ever even talk to Danielle and Cowboy, it’s probably because they’re so busy with work and everything. Me and Robin are better friends now then we were at job corps. I mean when she first got there we were really good friends, then she dated Chris and it changed everything, because it got me to thinking, what kind of a friend would date your ex-boyfriend and not even tell you. She promised me she would never date any of my ex’s and it just kinda hurt to have her break a promise to me. It actually hurt more then the fact that I wasn’t exactly over Chris at the time that she dated him. What’s wierd is now that both of us are soo over him. He’s the one inside joke me and her have that none of our other friends would ever understand. Me and her are the only two girl’s at job corps who understand because in order to understand it you would have to have dated Chris P. It’s wierd that the one thing that almost cost us our friendship is the one thing we laugh about the most now. Anyways, that’s the update for now.

School…

You know what I really hate…I was supposed to have gotten my schedule for school last month but because of the recent change in tuiton rates and the classes that they have they’re massively behind in EVERTHING…I haven’t gotten it yet and school starts back on Thursday of next week the 14th. Anyways, I hope that I get it before then. But I drove up there today and I found out just how behind in everything they really are. Plus they’ve been gone for 4 days at a confrence that’s madatory which meant they had 4 less days to do what they have to before school starts back up. Anyways, just felt I had to rant about that. Also the heat is really getting to me.. It’s been in the 100’s for the last week and it doesn’t look like it’s going to break anytime soon. Plus the entire state of Oklahoma is in a drought because it hasn’t rained in over 2 months. Which isn’t like Oklahoma because it normally rains when you get a 10% chance of rain. But it hasn’t. I hope we get the rain that supposed to happen on Saturday because we could really use it. Anyways, that’s the update for now.

The Update…

Sorry about not updating..but with school fixing to start I have been really busy. I also have to find another job because Sykes didn’t want to work around the fact that in less then 2 weeks I go back to school, WHICH means I have to go part-time. I guess it made them made. To make a very long story short, they pointed me out even though I hadn’t missed any days. So, looking for another job has added more onto the normal busyness that I would have right before school started. Anyways, Caity has it stuck in her head that her mom is going to sign the papers so that she can join the army in 4 months which would be about 3 months before she turns 18, which me knowing how her mom is, she may say that she will now but in four months it is SO not going to happen, she is just saying what she thinks Caity wants to hear, in order for her to be quite about her making her go back to school in college. Anyways, my mom and me went clothes shopping yesterday and ended up spending roughly $300. Not saying we don’t shop a lot but I totally think we went way over board. She’s just uber excited because I’m one of the few people in my family to actually go to college. I guess it’s kind of suprising in a way, that is if you don’t know much about how the people in my family work. Anyways, this the update for now. I’ll try and update more often…

Not much to say today…

So, school starts on the 14th, which is in like 2 weeks. I have to go and sign more papers for financal aid, it’s my award letter or something like that. Anyways, everything is going better for me. Except for the fact that I have to find a new job because when i took my class schedule to Sykes a couple of days ago they didn’t want to work around it.

 

This has been a short blog but I didn’t have much to say today. Anyways, that’s the update.

I’m looking for someone!

Sometimes, I’m amazed how much the internet really does have on it…I’m looking for my father RICHARD DEAN HOLDER. I think it’s amazing it’s taken 19 years to even come up with a name for the guy. I’ve known since I was about 12 that my mom didn’t really know. I’m still not so sure this is the right guy, but if I don’t find him then I may never know. I’ve been searching any and every site on the internet looking for him. But everytime I try I bring up a whole lot of people by that name. The thing is I only know his name his aproximate age of 36-38 and that he lives somewhere in Oklahoma. No one in my family has seen him since I was about 5 and my little brother, who they know for sure is his kid, was about 1 or 2. Anyways, if anyone out there knows a man by the name of Richard Holder who lived in, or around Tulsa, Oklahoma in 1988-1991, and is somewhere around the age of 36-38 then please have him send me an e-mail so that I can find out if he is the right one or not. My e-mail is TifaLockHeart1988@gmail.com or just have him Instant Message me at onthebrinkofinsanity_1989@hotmail.com on msn messager or mountiandewrulez on yahoo messanger. Anyways, that’s it for now.

 

Update -  Thanks pathakhemendra. Since I posted this I have gotten a pretty good lead, on a Richard Holder in Durant, OK. The problem is, the only reason I found this one was because I was checking newspapers, and this guy has just recently been sentenced to 20 years with 10 suspended for sexual assult of a 9 yr. old. It’s just kind of a bubble buster because I have spent my whole life thinking my dad was this great person that my mom just never gave him a chance to but the truth is, he isn’t a nice guy. When I saw that article I found a website that runs criminal background checks and he has quite a few from Tulsa and the surrounding areas around the times me and my little brother were born. I mean if Durant wasn’t so far from where I live I would drive up to the county jail and visit him, but the truth is I don’t really know what I would say, because I don’t know for a fact that it is the right Richard. I actually hope to God that it’s just another dead end, because then it wouldn’t burst my bubble so much. I would just be at the same place I have been, just not knowing.

Great Response…

I’ve had such a great response about my blog yesterday on my friend Talia’s death from a car accident this past Saturday. Thanks to all of you guys for your support it’s nice to know all about you guys stories. She’s not the first friend that I have lost in my 19 yrs of life, when I was 13 I lost my best friend Shawna Bradley in a drunk driving accident. Me and her where both in the car with her mom and her 9 yr old cousin britney and we were only about 3 blocks from her house when a guy ran right into the passanger side of the car. Shawna never made it to the hospital, she died in the ambulance on the way there. I felt horrible because I walked aways with a broken arm and a messed up knee caused from being struck so hard. Her mom walked away with a couple of bruised ribs. Britney was in the seat right next to me and she died on impact. They didn’t know that they guy was druck until a couple days later. What ended up happening to him is when he saw the article in the newpaper a couple of days later and he found out he killed a 9 yr old and a 12 yr old he decided it wasn’t worth it to spend the next 10 yrs or so in prision feeling guilty about it and he drove his car 110 miles an hour in a tree and died on impact. I can tell you that even thought it has been 7 yrs everyone in the small Texas town of Kilgore still misses Shawna and Britney. I just thought I would share this with you to let you know this isn’t the first time this kind of sadness has happened to me in my 19 yrs of life.  Because of this I have been an active member of SADD (Students against Drunk Driving) since I was in the 7th grade. I feel that by being apart of them I can help prevent this from happening to other people. I made a pact to myself that yr that I would never drink and drive no matter what the reasons because I know what the consquences of it are.

More Saddness…

When I opened the newspaper I was really shocked, well shocked doesn’t even say it. I found out that one of the people that I went to job corps with that lived in my hometown died in a car accident on Saturday. Her name was Talia Harvey, she was only 18, other then just going to job corps with me she was also one of my very first roommates when I got there, in fact the first room that I got put into she was the only one that was nice to me. I mean we weren’t exactly friends but not enemies either. I think it’s weirder because she also worked at the same place as me, she was still in training so I didn’t really see her at work very much but me and her would take break or lunch together every once in a while. Its also really weird because this is the second person that worked at Sykes that has died in a car accident just since I started working there in April. The first one was a Manger named Chris Thomas, he was 30 and had 2 kids. But anyways, I just think it’s weird because both of the people who have recently died in car accidents, it has been there fault, Chris was going 120+ on a dirt road and flipped his car and died before anyone could find him because it was out in the middle of nowhere, and Talia ran out in front of another vechicle and got it ran right into the driver’s side and died at the scene, and sent another girl to the hospital in critical condition. Anyways, I just had to get that out there.

<Below is an article on Talia’s accident that is from http://www.kswo.com/Global/story.asp?S=8704182 >

One killed in Kay county collision

Associated Press - July 20, 2008 1:15 PM ET

BLACKWELL, Okla. (AP) - An 18-year-old woman is dead following a collision in Kay County.

The Oklahoma Highway Patrol identified the victim as Talia Harvey of Ponca City. The patrol says she was pronounced dead at the scene of the crash.

Troopers say the crash occurred at 5:10 p.m. yesterday on U.S. Highway 177 two miles south of Blackwell. Harvey’s vehicle had stopped at a stop sign at an intersection but failed to yield to an oncoming vehicle, pulling into its path.

The second vehicle struck the victim’s car on the driver’s side door, and the victim was pinned in the wreckage for about an hour.

 

<Below is Talia’s obituary that was posted in the Ponca City news paper and at http://poncacitynews.com/templates/obits/340939235567469.bsp >

Talia Rochelle Harvey

Talia Rochelle Harvey, resident of Ponca City, was taken from this earth to live with God on Saturday, July 19, 2008, as a result of an auto accident. She was 18. Talia was born March 18, 1990. Her enjoyments included boxing, basketball, her family and friends. Talia had a heart of gold. She is survived by her mother, Alicia C. Harvey of Rushville, Neb.; her adopted parents, Jerry and Rhonda Arnold of Ponca City; her brothers, Zachery Chadoe Toahty-Harvey of Langston and Glenn Chadana Toahty-Harvey of Tulsa; her sisters, Tiana Henreyetta Toahty-Harvey of Ponca City, Rayleen, Roxanna and Faith Arnold, of the home; one little brother, Maxwell R. Arnold, also of the home; two small nephews; and many other family members and friends. She will always be grateful for coach Ken Luttrel, a true and faithful friend and trainer. She was preceded in death by her grandmother, Ursula C. Harvey; great-grandmother, Birdie-N-Koshiway Gawhega; and great-grandfather, Raymond C. Gawhega. A prayer service will be held at 7 p.m. Monday, July 21, at the Otoe-Missouria Tribal Center. A noon feast will be held Tuesday, July 22, at the Tribal Center with the funeral to follow at 2 p.m. Interment will be in Otoe-Missouria Cemetery under the direction of Grace Memorial Chapel. A memorial fund in Talia’s memory has been set up at the Bank of Oklahoma, 110 South Main, Newkirk, Okla. 74647 for the Salvation Army Boxing Club. A special appreciation goes out to Oklahoma Highway Patrol Trooper, N. Oliver 592. paid obituary