Hello World!!

Hey everyone in the wordpress world. I started writing a long time ago but with all stress caused from my current situation of being 19, single and 3 months pregnant with my first child, I have decided that I am going to go to the world wide web and write in a more public place with more viewers. I’m not like some people who get pregnant at my age I do know who my babys father is. His name is Charles and me and him dated while I was at job corps. Well I left job corps back on march 26th. Me and him did,  like a lot of people who are looking at being hundreds of miles apart do. We promised each other that no matter what we would stay together. Well when I left job corps because I was leaving as a completer I left with over 500 dollars and I decided to send a bus ticket to one of my friends who was homeless and needed a way out in Texas. Well I sent him the ticket and my parents agreed that he could stay with us and crash on our couch until he saved up the money to get his own place. Well when he got here he had a lot of problems finding a job and when he did finally find one it was minanim wage and he was looking at staying with us for a while before he could save up the money for an apt. Well about this time was a couple of weeks after I left and me and Charles were still going strong but when I passed the idea of renting a two bedroom apt and splitting the rent with John. Well to say the very least he went balistic saying it would be so wrong. Well we ended up breaking up because of it. Well since this happened my friend John has moved to OKC to see if he can find a better paying job there and I was starting to think everything was going really good in my life with the new job and the new friends and everything. When suddenly I realize that I’ve missed 2 periods and hadn’t even noticed it until now. Well a couple of days later I took a pregnancy test and it came out positive. I didn’t really want to face the fact that I was pregnant because then it would mean I would have to break the news to Charles because he was the only person who could be the father. Well I went to the doctor and was also told the same thing and that I was about a 2 months along at the time. Well it took me a while to finally come to terms with this but I left like a billion messages with Charles’ grandparents and told them to have him call me back because it was important. Well it took him a couple of weeks to finally get around to calling me back and when I broke the news to him he basically said it wasn’t his but after explaining that it had to be and how far along i was and everything he finally said ok. Well it’s been about a month since all of this has happened I’m pretty much gotten used to be pregnant and me and Charles are at least talking to each other now. I’m working all the time and so is he but were trying for the sake of our unborn child to make this work some how. I guess from everything that I have said it would sound as though my life is totally out of wack but the truth is it might be and it might not be because I’m just going with whatever happens happens because if i don’t I will got totally insane and need drugs or something to make me sane again. Well thats the update for now. If you want to read some more about my learning that i was pregnant you can read about it at my diaryland journal!!

~ by Sasha on June 19, 2008.