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Ok, So Dustin went back to Enid today. But I have to say that I had an amazing six days while he was down. I just feel so safe with him. Even though he does have so pretty pshycotic ex-girlfriends it doesn’t matter to me. It’s different with him. I can truthfully say that I think he is the one. He is trying to find a job here in Ponca so he can be closer to me but for right now it’s just phone calls, emails, im’s. And the occasional visit when he can. It’s gonna be hard and I am prepared for it. But I know that in the end it will all be worth it. I actually was friends with one of his exs and she went buserk when she found out about us. But tonight she called me and said she was sorry for all the drama of last week and that she would stay out of our relationship and asked if we could be friends again. Because she just couldn’t handle losing me as a friend over a guy. So I will just have to see where that goes.
But other than that I have had a GREAT week!
So, I have to say that in the past couple of weeks not much has really happened in the way of my life..But then if you regually read my blog you probably know that I tend to lead a pretty boring normal life. But then last week I started to really think maybe I was back at job corps because of all the massive drama I have gotten myself wrapped back up into. Ok, what happened is I started dating this guy I met at job corps a year ago, but we have both liked each other for a while but I never really gave him much of a shot because he was from Texas and I didn’t want a long distance relationship after the whole Charles thing. Anyways, I found out he has been living not that far from me since he left job corps back in August and me and him really got to talking again. It sort of made me a whole lot happier because I had really been missing him for the last couple of months. Anyways, what I didn’t know when I started dating him is that he has some very pshycopathic ex-girlfriends who are so totally not over him. Well they have been creating fake accounts on myspace and yahoo and sending people threats making it look like its him. Well once they found out about me and him they have started calling me and texting me really mean stuff. It has gotten so bad that the other night I was actually crying because I just couldn’t take it anymore. Well I tried to change me phone number but because me and my mom are on a family plan we both have to have the first part of our numbers the same and they didn’t have another 401 one so they would have had to change both of our numbers and I didn’t want to do that. So I just decided that I won’t answer my phone to Christina’s number because it always comes from her phone even when its not really her. And me and him have actually figured out that the whole plot has been to make his life miserable because Christina wants him back and doesn’t want him to be happy with anyone else. I’m not so sure what I have gotten myself into but what I do know is that he makes me really happy and this is the first time in my life I can truly say that I could jump for joy. I mean yes it is still a little bit long distance because of me living in Ponca and him in Enid but we do still get to see each other every once in a while. Plus we are looking at breaking my mom and dads record of the longest phone conversation because we are at five hours straight right now. I can truthfully say I am falling in love with him. I’m just kind of afraid because of his ex’s being the way that they are. What makes it worse is very few of my friends are backing me up and the ones that are, are in college in california right now. Me and him have talked about going back to job corps but with all the stuff going on right now with the current trainees I’m not so sure anymore if we want to be their it might just cause more problems then are relationship can handle.
Anyways, that just about sums up the past week of my life.
Ok, let me just start out saying that in the last couple of days I have had a grand total of two panic attacks. They have both been caused by my some what annoying friend Christina. Who is still at job corps but seems to think that her physco ex-boyfriend can bring a gun on to federal property..I know that a lot of you guys only know about job corps what I have told you in previous posts, so let me just tell you that they are sort of like a gated community. They have security that you have to get past just to go in and you aren’t aloud past the front gate unless you are a trainee or you have some other reason to be there. Anyways, Dustin (her ex) has been sending me and her threatening emails on myspace telling us that he’s gonna get onto job corps campus and hurt her. He doesn’t use those words exactly but when someone meantions no witness’s and a bringing a gun you can kind of get the picture of what they plan on doing. I mean I told her just to tell CPO (center protection) and they wouldn’t let him anywhere near her and that if he did happen to show up then they would call the cops on him.
Anyways, it makes me feel better just having gotten that out in the open. What I don’t get is why I have been having panic attacks when I was under more stress when I was at job corps and never had any problems with anything like this. But its also like I told my mom I was talking to the campus physciatrist once a week the whole time I was there. They didn’t make me or anything it just made my time there so much easier by doing that. I think about that maybe it has nothing to do with the situation of my friend and everything to do with me being stuck here until march because I have to wait out the year. I don’t know it just seems like the older I get the more complicated life gets and the faster every day seems to pass me by.
So, Barack Obama won the election. I have to say that I’m still excited. It was annouced that he won last night are 10:05 p.m. Oklahoma time. Right after he swept the west coast.
I can just imaginen telling my grandkids someday that I helped elect the first African-American President.
It’s hard to believe that he went from being the under-dog to being elected. Only time will tell if electing him will help the country as much as we all think it will.
I sure hope it will…
<3 Sasha
So, I found out that I don’t exactly like what I like to call my “thinking” days because I had one the other day and I ended up admitting to one of my best friends, that I’ve known since we were in diapers, that I’ve the biggest crush on him since like the 3rd grade…
And i started to regret it the second I hit the send button because I don’t really want to go out with him…It just made me feel better telling him…I’m I like as more then just a friend but I’m not willing to risk out friendship for a relationship…
It’s like ever time I have one of those days I start to rethink every thing I have ever done in my life and then in the end I end up doing something even stupider then I normally would have…
Today he asked me if I still planned on going back to job corps…and I told him that yes I do, it’s just that I have to wait out the year which means it won’t be until march…and he asked me if we could catch up on what we missed when we lived in different states for 6 years…
Truthfully I’m not sure what to tell him…I know I will figure it out because I always do, but as of right now, I’m still trying to figure it out…I have a little bit because he works nights as a stock-boy so he doesn’t get off work until 1 am then he sleeps until about noon. So I have till about noon tommorrow to come up with something…that’s when he will start worrying that I’m ignoring him when I’m not I just haven’t a clue what to tell him because I didn’t think he would ask that question, because truthfully me calling them thinking days is a huge misnomer because its usually those days that I do the least amount of thinking when it comes to the actions I make on that day…and just rethink past stuff that I can’t really do anything about.
Anyways, that’s the update for now…
I’ll let you know what happens with Justin the next chance I get.
