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As some of you may know. That is the few of you who have my myspace or myyearbook. I have finally made my decison about going back to job corps in April when my year is up. Believe me it was not something I was wanting to do. But in the end it came down too. How many second chances do people really get in life. And if this is something that I have to do in order for me finally to take control of my own life then its gonna have to be done. At one point I thought I had mr. right but then he turned out to be mr. oh so wrong, as has happened oh so many times before. I’m actually tired of this happening. I want my happily ever after and sooner rather than later.But then again I have also had an interesting turn of events in the last couple of days. Just as I was coming to the conculison that I really was going to go back. One of my best friends since forever desicded that he is going to go to job corps. Now mind you I hadn’t told anyone except my immediate family that I was even thinking about going back so I know that it doesn’t have anything to do with me. But it is intresting that this perticular friend is also the one that I have been crushing on since like 3rd grade. And I know he has been crushing on me for a while too. Just not so sure what either one of us is ready to do about it because of the whole complicatedness of mine and his families. You see his Dad has been with my older sister for 15 years since she was 18. Well this is actually how me and him became friends but also because his grandma and my mom were best friends until she died back in 2001 but thats a whole other story. Anyways, his half brothers are my nephews well of course as everyone including my mom and sister have told me there isn’t anything wrong with it if we were to date because we aren’t blood related we aren’t even related by marriage because his dad and my sister haven’t gotten around do doing that yet. Now while I do tell most everyone that he is just my best friend and nothing else. It’s totally not true. I don’t really know how to explain how I feel about him because it’s not something I have ever felt before. And also because in truth I don’t want to ruin another great friendship with a relationship because I have done that way too many times for my own likeing. Plus I also know from personal experience that I fall in love way too easy and way too fast. I don’t know. I guess this will just have to be one of those wait and see kind of things. Never know maybe we are meant to be. Everyone always says that you fall in love with your best friend and it lasts forever. Who knows what life really has in store for us. It’s all just a waiting game. Anyways just thought I would get this off my chest since I can’t sleep and all. Promise to keep you updated on the current love life situation and the current job corps going back in progress situation as it panes out.
Nickelback- If everyone cared lyrics
So I thought I pretty much had my job back at Sykes they said that everything was pretty much just a formality. But in the end I didn’t get it and the real big problem now is that all the skills that I have are in Business and there are no business jobs here in Ponca and because of other more personal reasons I can’t leave town right now. So what I have been thinking of doing is going back to job corps to take another trade. There are a whole lot of health jobs around this town. So I have been thinking even though I was going to take Culinary Arts if I went back I was thinking of taking Health Occupations. Mostly because its just as hard to find a culinary job as it is a business job so I wouldn’t really be solving much. Anyways, I still have a month and if I do find a job before then I won’t go back. But this is the second time I have come to this conculsion in the 11 months that I have been out of job corps. It just seems like all I really left with was my GED because I can’t use the certificate in business that I got. Anyways, I’ll try to update more often then I have been lately but i’m not too sure how successful I am gonna be because this isn’t the first time as most of you know that I have said that. Anyways, thats the update for now.
Headstrong Trapt Lyrics
One of my all-time fave songs…
My life has been so completly boring in the last week or so that I have had no clue what to even blog about. Life has been going unusually well for me. I still at times wish that me and Dustin had never gotten together because I was the reason he moved here and now all I really want is the peacefulness of Ponca back. It’s not that Ponca isn’t still the same old town. It’s just that before I went back to Sykes I was being for forced to work with him. And I tried to get them to at least put me on a different shift then him. Even if it meant that I had to work early in the morning. But when they did switch my shift they ended up switching his too because of his current girlfriend working the old shift. It’s not as bad now because in someways I can just ignore his existence but also I can’t because he has taken to giving his new girlfriend my cell phone number so she has been texting me saying stupid crap like how she doesn’t understand why I broke up with him. I tried to warn her but truthfully I am getting really tired of being little miss nice girl. I’m tired of having to be nice when I don’t want to be. I hate that he won’t just go back to Enid and let me live my life and him live his. He can’t just ignore me like I have been trying to do to him. I know I broke his heart and made him cry but its not like I can take it back.
My friends tell me that the only reason all of this is happening is because back a couple months ago I said that I was bored. And that I needed some excitement in my life. But that instead of excitment I ended up getting drama. Which as everyone knows can look like excitment to some people but not to me. I hate drama. It’s the stupidest thing in the world.
Anyways, I’m glad that I got that off my chest. Not much else to say today.
-Sasha
As seen in BeckieBarista
How it works:
Each “question” you have to answer with a song
1. Open your iPod/iPhone/iTunes music library
2. Put it on shuffle
3. Press play
4. For the first question, type the song that’s playing
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button twice
My Life Soundtrack
Opening Credits: Teardrops On My Guitar – Taylor Swift
Waking Up: Gives you hell – All-American Rejects
First Day at School: Later – Jordan Pruitt
Falling in Love: 7 Things by Miley Cyrus
Losing Virginity: Tattoo – Jordin Sparks
Fight Song: Wave on Wave – Pat Green
Breaking Up: When your gone – Avril Lavigne
Matric farewell / Prom: I’ll Be – Reba McEntire
Life: When You Look Me In The Eyes – Jonas Brothers
Mental Breakdown: Hey Stephen – Taylor Swift
Driving: Clumsy – Fergie
Flashback: Paraylzer – Finger Eleven
Getting Back Together: Love Like This – Natasha Bedingfield
Wedding: I Hate This Part – The Pussycat Dolls
Birth of Child: Something in your mouth – Nickelback
Final Battle: One Step At a time – Jordin Sparks
Death Scene: Beautiful Soul – Jesse McCartney
