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So life has gotten a little bit more complicated for me..Dustin one of my recent ex’s has been trying to get me back. Now I have tried the whole explaining that I’m leaving in two weeks to go back to job corps and I don’t really want to be tied down to anyone back home. But he just pulls the whole well I’m going back in August when my year is up. It came down to me out right telling him that the main reason I broke up with him back in January was because he loved me more than I loved him. Because in truth I was in love with the idea of happily ever after not him. And that I am on this new found road of becoming the good girl that has been trapped inside me for all these years. He said that he was okay with just being friends but I know that in his heart he is just saying it’s better than nothing. Anyways, once that was over with and he was semi-okay with just being friends. My best friend Caity trys to set me up with my other best friend Jeremy. No don’t get me wrong I have had a thing for him since I’ve known him but Jer doesn’t like me like that. He has always had a thing for Caity and I’m fine with it. Then tonight she was proceeding to try and set me up with my good friend Dave. Now me and Dave tried to date once. It lasted a mear 3 days because it just got to awkward. We are way too much alike. Outgoing, Crazy, Random, Music Obsessed Individuals, stuck in suburbia. It makes mine and his friendship more of a brother sisterly thing. We both care cheer each other up no matter how bad the day has been and I have to say that I don’t think I would have survived Job corps the first time without him. Anyways, on to other news. I now have a new found appriciation for the good girl that has been hidden deep inside me for all these years. Back at the beginning of the year I told myself that I was going to make a five year plan to be a good person before 25. Well I can say that I have cut out the whole being revenge master with my bff caity. But like my mom said it’s gonna take a while before I’m totally back to good girl. And that I can’t do it for anyone but myself. And I’m not I’m just tired of being the bad girl. The one who is always in trouble for one thing or another. The one that everyone stays happy at because she is known as the revenge master of the group. And that if someone hurts one of my friends/family they better be prepared to mess with me too. Well I have warned all of my friends that I don’t plan on ever being that person again. And as far as I can see now, most of them are okay with it. Caity, Jer, and Dave are actually proud of me. Well actually Dave says he never knew that I had a bad side. And I told him that’s because he brings out that best in me. But I don’t know anymore. I’m working on the not cursing at people right now. Which is my hardest task because it has become a horrible habit over the last couple of years. But I’m getting better. Anyways, that’s it for now. Update more later.
So not much has really happened…Me and Justin broke up a couple of days after he left for job corps on the 10th…Not real sure what happened other than he wanted to date some welder chick there..No mind you that the welder’s at job corps are well known to be players even the few girls that are in the trade…and I can see it ending badly and him trying to get me back…But this time I decided that in truth I have to learn to pick my boyfriends better…and also that I don’t want to be attached to anything or anyone in Ponca because I want to be able to leave town and go back to job corps without having to have a constient reminder of my previous life and the many bad deeds that I have done. I mean of course my family will still know about them but my family is a little bit less likely to remind me of them every chance they get…I want to be able to make friends that don’t know about the way I acted when I was there the first time and I mean the thing with Justin is because he has known me my whole life he could tell them and remind me of the stupid stuff I pulled as a teenager that I know better than to repeat now. Anyways, I called the admissions woman for job corps and set up and interview to fill out papers at 10 am on the 3rd..I will keep you guys updated on it…Anyways, That’s all for now.
-Sasha
Sorry about not updating such a long time. I just havent really had much to blog about. Life in general has been pretty boring for me. I basically waiting out the last couple of weeks until I can put my application back in to go back to job corps. I did call the women a couple of weeks ago just to make sure that I actually could go back considering that I didn’t leave on the best of terms with the disiplinary people. And she said that everything she be ready to that she just can’t put my information back in as a reenrollment until the 27th. Which is the day after my one year. Oh, as I promised in the last blog to keep you guys updated on the whole me and justin thing. I will as promised. Basically I she know better than to post that kind of stuff on the internet because I guess he got bored one day and was reading my blog and saw his name meantioned and wanted to see what I had to say about him. Now it’s not like he didn’t know about my crush on him because he did just like I knew about his on me. It’s just like I said so complicated that we always thought that the complicatedness of it made it just not worth it. Well in the end we decided to give it a chance, see where it goes. Anyways, he left to go to job corps on tuesday. At the moment I can’t call him because as usual his cell phone is out of minutes. And he hasn’t been online since he got there. But I know how busy the first week can be so I’m not really suprised. This weekend he will probably get online. Plus he hasn’t even called his Dad and he usually does. If I get super worried about him I’ll call the office phone for dorm 26. Other than that it will be much easier once I’m on campus with him. Anyways other than that my bestie Caity went back to Arkansas today. And my other bestie Jermey went back to OKC. Caity was going to come down and live in OKC after she turned 18 in a couple of weeks but she got into college there, so she isn’t anymore. Now I don’t blame her and I’m really proud that she got into college. Jeremy on the other hand is really mad that she changed the plans. It doesn’t help that Jeremy has a huge crush on her and thought that by getting her in his hometown it would make it easier or something not really sure. He says its just because he wants the three muskateers back together for the first time in a year, but i don’t know. Anyways, that’s all for now.
