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As some of you may know. That is the few of you who have my myspace or myyearbook. I have finally made my decison about going back to job corps in April when my year is up. Believe me it was not something I was wanting to do. But in the end it came down too. How many second chances do people really get in life. And if this is something that I have to do in order for me finally to take control of my own life then its gonna have to be done. At one point I thought I had mr. right but then he turned out to be mr. oh so wrong, as has happened oh so many times before. I’m actually tired of this happening. I want my happily ever after and sooner rather than later.But then again I have also had an interesting turn of events in the last couple of days. Just as I was coming to the conculison that I really was going to go back. One of my best friends since forever desicded that he is going to go to job corps. Now mind you I hadn’t told anyone except my immediate family that I was even thinking about going back so I know that it doesn’t have anything to do with me. But it is intresting that this perticular friend is also the one that I have been crushing on since like 3rd grade. And I know he has been crushing on me for a while too. Just not so sure what either one of us is ready to do about it because of the whole complicatedness of mine and his families. You see his Dad has been with my older sister for 15 years since she was 18. Well this is actually how me and him became friends but also because his grandma and my mom were best friends until she died back in 2001 but thats a whole other story. Anyways, his half brothers are my nephews well of course as everyone including my mom and sister have told me there isn’t anything wrong with it if we were to date because we aren’t blood related we aren’t even related by marriage because his dad and my sister haven’t gotten around do doing that yet. Now while I do tell most everyone that he is just my best friend and nothing else. It’s totally not true. I don’t really know how to explain how I feel about him because it’s not something I have ever felt before. And also because in truth I don’t want to ruin another great friendship with a relationship because I have done that way too many times for my own likeing. Plus I also know from personal experience that I fall in love way too easy and way too fast. I don’t know. I guess this will just have to be one of those wait and see kind of things. Never know maybe we are meant to be. Everyone always says that you fall in love with your best friend and it lasts forever. Who knows what life really has in store for us. It’s all just a waiting game. Anyways just thought I would get this off my chest since I can’t sleep and all. Promise to keep you updated on the current love life situation and the current job corps going back in progress situation as it panes out.
