You know what I really hate…I was supposed to have gotten my schedule for school last month but because of the recent change in tuiton rates and the classes that they have they’re massively behind in EVERTHING…I haven’t gotten it yet and school starts back on Thursday of next week the 14th. Anyways, I hope that I get it before then. But I drove up there today and I found out just how behind in everything they really are. Plus they’ve been gone for 4 days at a confrence that’s madatory which meant they had 4 less days to do what they have to before school starts back up. Anyways, just felt I had to rant about that. Also the heat is really getting to me.. It’s been in the 100’s for the last week and it doesn’t look like it’s going to break anytime soon. Plus the entire state of Oklahoma is in a drought because it hasn’t rained in over 2 months. Which isn’t like Oklahoma because it normally rains when you get a 10% chance of rain. But it hasn’t. I hope we get the rain that supposed to happen on Saturday because we could really use it. Anyways, that’s the update for now.
I’m looking for someone!
July 26, 2008 at 9:13 am (Life)
Tags: 19, 36-38, didnt know, family, looking for father, oklahoma, richard holder
Sometimes, I’m amazed how much the internet really does have on it…I’m looking for my father RICHARD DEAN HOLDER. I think it’s amazing it’s taken 19 years to even come up with a name for the guy. I’ve known since I was about 12 that my mom didn’t really know. I’m still not so sure this is the right guy, but if I don’t find him then I may never know. I’ve been searching any and every site on the internet looking for him. But everytime I try I bring up a whole lot of people by that name. The thing is I only know his name his aproximate age of 36-38 and that he lives somewhere in Oklahoma. No one in my family has seen him since I was about 5 and my little brother, who they know for sure is his kid, was about 1 or 2. Anyways, if anyone out there knows a man by the name of Richard Holder who lived in, or around Tulsa, Oklahoma in 1988-1991, and is somewhere around the age of 36-38 then please have him send me an e-mail so that I can find out if he is the right one or not. My e-mail is TifaLockHeart1988@gmail.com or just have him Instant Message me at onthebrinkofinsanity_1989@hotmail.com on msn messager or mountiandewrulez on yahoo messanger. Anyways, that’s it for now.
Update – Thanks pathakhemendra. Since I posted this I have gotten a pretty good lead, on a Richard Holder in Durant, OK. The problem is, the only reason I found this one was because I was checking newspapers, and this guy has just recently been sentenced to 20 years with 10 suspended for sexual assult of a 9 yr. old. It’s just kind of a bubble buster because I have spent my whole life thinking my dad was this great person that my mom just never gave him a chance to but the truth is, he isn’t a nice guy. When I saw that article I found a website that runs criminal background checks and he has quite a few from Tulsa and the surrounding areas around the times me and my little brother were born. I mean if Durant wasn’t so far from where I live I would drive up to the county jail and visit him, but the truth is I don’t really know what I would say, because I don’t know for a fact that it is the right Richard. I actually hope to God that it’s just another dead end, because then it wouldn’t burst my bubble so much. I would just be at the same place I have been, just not knowing.
To continue on my hatred of the greyhound bus station
July 10, 2008 at 8:58 am (Friends for life, Life)
Tags: BIG CITY TRAFFIC, BUS TICKET, Caity, GREYHOUND, HATRED, INSANE, KANSAS, KANSAS CITY, MO, oklahoma, PHONE CALL, SUCKS, WICHTA
Ok, so in the last post it was all about my hatred of the greyhound bus station well what turned out happening is Caity got a motel room in Kansas City, Mo and she called the front desk and asked them to give her a 430 am wake up call so that she could make her 6 am bus to oklahoma. Well turns out they never called her and she woke up thirty minutes after her bus left. I rememeber the phone call about that one she was so pissed because of it and because of the fact that they went on to tell her that if she took the next bus she wouldn’t get in until 1130 pm and that if she wanted oklahoma any earlier she would have to go to OKC and as I mentioned in the last entry I don’t drive in OKC…insane drivers and its a super long story that I don’t really want to go into…anyways on with the story when she called me to basically rant and rave and tell me about it I asked her to ask them when the next bus to withcia kansas got in and they said 445 which was a whole lot better then the 1130 one so I told her to transfer her ticket and I would find a way to get there because I HATE big city traffic. Anyways 86 miles, 3 hours and 1 time of getting super lost in whitca, kansas I finally did make it to the bus station but since her bus was running late, as per usual when it comes to the bus system in this country, it didn’t get in at 445 like it was supposed to it was closer to 505, but what I don’t get is that she said that they left on time and make only the necessary stops in between, how in the hell did they manage to still be late, that i will probably never ever figure out. But anyways it’s super late and I’m going the hell to sleep…plus I’m pretty sure no one wants to hear anymore ranting about the greyhound bus station and how fucked up it was that my best friend spent 18 in kansas city, mo when she was supposed to be her in ten hours all because one bus was three hours late leaving.
One Way Bus Ticket From Arkansas To Oklahoma
July 5, 2008 at 2:36 am (Friends for life, Life)
Tags: 17, 5 months on the run, arkansas, bad situation, Caity, Charlie, helping her, oklahoma, oneway bus ticket, runaway
So, I disappeared off the internet for a whole week. Mostly because my best friend Caity is coming into town on Monday and so I’ ve been basically living on my cell phone talking to her since I found out. In the last entry I told you about my new cat. The thing is it didn’t really work out all that well because he kept fighting with my other cats so I ended up taking him back to his previous owners and going to the pound and getting 2 kittens. There names are Chloe and Max, Chloe is black and white, she’s 4 weeks old. And Max is grey and he’s 8 weeks. I only was going to get one but like my mom has been saying since I was really little I have this thing about seeing animals in need and wanting to take them home with me. I can’t ever go to the pound and only get one cat. I guess you could say I have a soft spot for animals and people in need. Charlie went home about 3 days after I had my miscarrage and me and him haven’t really talked since. I think maybe we really were only making it work for the sake of the baby and then when there wasn’t one anymore we just didn’t really have a reason to make it work anymore. It sucks but I guess God really does work in mysterious ways. But back on to the Caity coming down thing. Well I’m kind of helping her runaway you could say. You see me and her met at Job Corps and she’s only 17. Well her mother is to say the very least a bad mother. She’s been leaving her and her little brother Shane home by themselves since Caity was 10 and Shane was 6. And were not talking for an afternoon while she runs to the store no it’s entire weekends with little to no food and no car to get anywhere. And of course she lives in a really small town so in order to go anywhere to get food you have to have a car because the closest grocrey store is a town away. But anyways basically a couple of days ago Caity calls me and asks me if I’ll send her $130 for a bus ticket from Arkansas to Oklahoma. I told her I would money gram it to her on Thursday when I got paid. So she told her mom she is coming out here for a week to visit but after the week she is going to call her mom and tell her that she’s decided that she’s not going to come back. And according to the many cops both me and her have asks she can’t make her come back because she’s so close to her 18th birthday. I don’t know if the cops where only telling us what we wanted to hear or not or if they were really telling us the truth. I mean I know my sister Margaret ranaway when she was 2 months past 17 and they told my dad there was’t a thing he could do about it when it came to making her come back. I don’t know I just hope I don’t get into trouble with the law when in truth I was only trying to help my best friend out of an 17 year long bad situation. It’s not like this is the first time she’s ranaway. She took off for New york when she was 15 but because of her age they made her come back after 5 months when they finally did figure out she went to one of the few places that felt like home to her. She even told me on the phone this morning that Oklahoma really does feel like home to her, because of all the people who really care about her here. Anyways that’s the update for now.
